If you've noticed in the past year. I use to blog quite often and after having baby girl I haven't written and posted as often. Well.... life sometimes doesn't go the way you want it to. Especially when the pandemic hit, it really messed things up.
When you hear me say 2020 was 💩 it had nothing to do with the pandemic. To be a good mother while my heart was breaking was one of the hardest roles I've ever had to play. Let me rewind... my whole world came tumbling down over a year ago.
My favourite person in the whole world decided that life with three kids our family wasn't something he wanted anymore.
In these months I've felt all the emotions you could imagine....
Most of all... I felt Like I was LETTING THE KIDS DOWN. I'm beyond SORRY that I couldn't keep our family together, or protect them from going through this. I'm sorry I've been sooo sad to miss the happy moments. I'm so sorry I didn't get to enjoy my baby girl's first year of her life because of this heavy fog hanging over me. I'm sorry they have to grow up not knowing what it'll be like to have both parents under the same roof.
I want them to know so badly how much I tried and would give anything in the world to make everything better for them. Through all of this, I've realized I have to keep going. Because if I don't no one else will. For my kids, I have to go on.
I'm sharing this to say mamas if you're going through this know it's okay you'll have moments of unimaginable sadness, pain, and anger but I promise you it'll pass. You're stronger than you think.... because you showed up every single day even when you thought you couldn't possibly keep going.
Please remember that when you see everyone's perfect life on Instagram you only see a smidge of their life. THIS is behind the scenes of the highlight reel of Instagram. Behind all the beautiful photos and smiles it could be a sad mama like me trying to hold it together for her kids.
Thank you for sticking around. I'll be slowly starting to get back into things and sharing more about my single motherhood journey.
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